After the drama of the last couple of weeks, Jack has gone to Rainbows Childrens Hospice for some respite today. It will be good for him to get a break from the usual routine, and it will be good for me too. I don’t mind admitting I feel a tad frazzled right now.
Jack will be home on Thursday, but in the meantime I’ve been going through some recent photos, and as I feel in a sharing mood, here they are. My beautiful boy…
It’s the end of the year….and you have no idea how much pleasure it gives me to state that fact!
2010 has been hell. Hurdles all the way and not much in the way of a relief from stress. Even though it’s the end of the year, the problems continue, but they seem much smaller now and a bit easier to deal with.
However, in the spirit of Christmas and all things festive, and bearing in mind the words of Auld Lang Syne, I have decided to post about all that is good in my life and not dwell on all the crap that 2010 has brought.
My Children….my beautiful little people who I was blessed with from 1995 onwards! Yes parenthood can bring many trials and tribulations….but nothing in this life compares to your child telling you how much they love you….and how wonderful it is when you see your own positive traits (and yes I do have some thankyou very much) emerge in the babies that you’ve created:
Matthew’s sense of humour….I know immediately what will make him laugh…and indeed what will make him sad. His sense of creativity, and love of all things technological….he’s a clever boy he really is.
Jack’s sense of fun….the smile he gives you when he finds something funny….his love of food….and the fantastic stubbornness that emerges when he’s being asked to do something that he can’t be bothered with! And not forgetting the cuddles that he will occasionally give out…all on his own terms of course!
Hannah’s strong determination…very quiet and crafty most of the time (she gets that from her Dad), but if she wants something doing, she will move heaven and earth to get it done (well yeah, maybe there’s a bit of me in there too). Hearing Hannah sing when she thinks no one is listening….she sounds like a precious little angel that I just want to wrap up and cuddle forever…even though I know she will spread her wings and fly away, just the same as Matthew will.
Ruby….my bonkers dog….who is far more human than canine most of the time! Very intelligent…and a bundle of fun…oh and as mad as a box of frogs.
Paul…..I don’t know where to start. This year has been his most challenging I believe. Not only has he had to deal with all the crap that I have, he’s had MORE than I’ve ever had to deal with. He has stood by my side firmly…and without question, although he would have to have been super-human to have done it not questioning himself at all! He’s worked and continues to work his fingers to the bone for his family…and he’s held me together when I have fallen apart. He is truly my best friend. If it wasn’t for him….I don’t know where I’d be…or in all honesty if I’d be here at all.
As for me….I’ve learned some good lessons this year – although it’s taken me all year to realise that some of them are lessons! I believe that we are sent lessons to learn from a higher authority. I’m not sure if that ‘s a God as such, or guardian angels….take it as you will. But I do believe that these lessons will be repeated until you learn them good!
I have learned lots of lessons in 2010. Bring on 2011, but please…make the lessons easier…I’m not sure I have the energy for anything too major!
This will be my last post for this year. The end of weeks brings the start of the holidays and I have sooo much still to do.
Whoever you are reading this blog…for starters thanks for reading, and I wish you a Very Merry Xmas and I hope that 2011 brings you all that you wish for yourselves.
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